Bütün doğal afetler, her ne kadar çözümü alınsa da, insan kaderinden kaçamayacağından toplumu derin yaralarla etkileyecektir. Modern İstanbul'un en büyük felaketi '99 yılında deprem ile yaşanmıştı. İçinde bulunduğumuz haftada da yoğun Eylül yağmurları sel afeti ile yüz yüze getirdi bizleri. Başta alınacak önlemler ile belki daha az zarar görebilirdik bu afetten. Ancak bir şeyi daha suratımıza çarptı bu afet. Biz her ne kadar binalarımızı, yollarımızı modernize etsek te sorun onlarda değil, sorun insanlarımızda. Yangından mal kaçırırcasına selden arta kalan sahipsiz malları yağmalayan zihniyet toplumdan silinmediği sürece daha büyük felaketler bizi bekleyecektir. Bir insanı bunu yapmaya zorlayan sosyolojik travmayı öğrenmek istiyorum. Toplum olarak nereye gidiyoruz sorusu hep kafamda canlanıyor. Artık kimsenin kimseye saygısının kalmadığı, önceliği "ben" olduğu egoist bir toplum olmanın eşiğindeyiz. O eşiği geçmeden kendimize çeki düzen vermenin yolu var mıdır? Eğer yoksa böyle bir toplumda bozulmadan yaşamanın bir yolu var mıdır? Eşik geçilmek üzere ve ben 2. yolun ucunu görebilmiş değilim.
10 Eylül 2009 Perşembe
7 Eylül 2009 Pazartesi
On Living
Genco Erkal'ın sesinden dinlemek zevklidir ama Oktay Kaynarca "damardan" okumuştur bu şiiri.
i
living is no joke,
you must live with great seriousness
like a squirrel for example,
i mean expecting nothing except and beyond living,
i mean living must be your whole occupation.
you must take living seriously,
i mean to such an extent that,
for example your arms are tied from your back, your back is on the wall,
or in a laboratory with your white shirt, with your huge eye glasses,
you must be able to die for people,
even for people you have never seen,
although nobody forced you to do this,
although you know that
living is the most real, most beautiful thing.
i mean you must take living so seriously that,
even when you are seventy, you must plant olive trees,
not because you think they will be left to your children,
because you don't believe in death although you are afraid of it
because, i mean, life weighs heavier.
ii
suppose we're very sick, in need of surgery,
i mean, there is the possibility that
we will never get up from the white table.
although it is impossible not to feel the grief of passing away somewhat too soon
we will still laugh at the funny joke being told,
we will look out of the window to see if it's raining,
or we will wait impatiently
for the latest news from agencies.
suppose, for something worth fighting for,
suppose we are on the battlefield.
over there, in the first attack, on the first day
we may fall on the ground on our face.
we will know this with a somewhat strange grudge,
but we will still wonder like crazy
the result of the war that will possibly last for years.
suppose we are in the jail,
age is close to fifty,
supose there are still eighteen years until the iron door will open.
still, we will live with the outer world,
with the people, animals, fights and winds
i mean, with the outer world beyond the walls.
i mean, however and wherever we are
we must live as if there is no death...
iii
this earth will cool down,
a star among all the stars,
one of the tiniest,
i mean a grain of glitter in the blue velvet,
i mean this huge world of ours.
this earth will cool down one day,
not even like a pile of ice
or like a dead cloud,
it will roll like an empty walnut
in the pure endless darkness.
you must feel the pain of this now,
you must feel the grief right now.
you must love this world so much
to be able to say 'i lived'...
i
living is no joke,
you must live with great seriousness
like a squirrel for example,
i mean expecting nothing except and beyond living,
i mean living must be your whole occupation.
you must take living seriously,
i mean to such an extent that,
for example your arms are tied from your back, your back is on the wall,
or in a laboratory with your white shirt, with your huge eye glasses,
you must be able to die for people,
even for people you have never seen,
although nobody forced you to do this,
although you know that
living is the most real, most beautiful thing.
i mean you must take living so seriously that,
even when you are seventy, you must plant olive trees,
not because you think they will be left to your children,
because you don't believe in death although you are afraid of it
because, i mean, life weighs heavier.
ii
suppose we're very sick, in need of surgery,
i mean, there is the possibility that
we will never get up from the white table.
although it is impossible not to feel the grief of passing away somewhat too soon
we will still laugh at the funny joke being told,
we will look out of the window to see if it's raining,
or we will wait impatiently
for the latest news from agencies.
suppose, for something worth fighting for,
suppose we are on the battlefield.
over there, in the first attack, on the first day
we may fall on the ground on our face.
we will know this with a somewhat strange grudge,
but we will still wonder like crazy
the result of the war that will possibly last for years.
suppose we are in the jail,
age is close to fifty,
supose there are still eighteen years until the iron door will open.
still, we will live with the outer world,
with the people, animals, fights and winds
i mean, with the outer world beyond the walls.
i mean, however and wherever we are
we must live as if there is no death...
iii
this earth will cool down,
a star among all the stars,
one of the tiniest,
i mean a grain of glitter in the blue velvet,
i mean this huge world of ours.
this earth will cool down one day,
not even like a pile of ice
or like a dead cloud,
it will roll like an empty walnut
in the pure endless darkness.
you must feel the pain of this now,
you must feel the grief right now.
you must love this world so much
to be able to say 'i lived'...
Top 100 List
Daily Telegraph yayımlamış. Ortak olduğum pek çok madde var.
Top 100 most annoying things:
1. Chavs
2. People driving close behind you
3. People who smell
4. People who eat with their mouth open
5. Rude shop assistants
6. Foreign call centres
7. Stepping in dog poo
8. People who cough and do not cover their mouths
9. Slow internet connections
10. Poor customer service
11. Dog owners that don't clean up after their dog
12. Noisy Eaters
13. Cold-callers
14. Door-to-door salesman
15. Stubbing your toe
16. Bullying
17. Computer crashing losing work you've spent three hours doing
18. People who talk loudly on their mobile phones
19. Spam email
20. The nation's obsession with Z-list celebrities
21. Leaving a tissue in a pocket and putting it in a washing machine
22. Driving slow in the fast lane
23. Adverts in between programmes
24. Toilets you have to pay for
25. The nation's obsession with the Katie & Peter split saga
26. People reading over your shoulder
27. People that park in disabled bays when they're not disabled
28. Brownnosers
29. People who complain about their weight yet make no effort to exercise or eat properly
30. People jumping the queue at the bar
31. Junk mail
32. Tailgaters
33. Big Brother
34. Muggers
35. MPs' expenses
36. Stepping in chewing gum
37. Pricey train fares
38. People who walk painfully slowly on the street
39. Noisy neighbours
40. People who sniff and don't use a tissue
41. Sweating
42. Binge drinking culture
43. Feeling bloated
44. The recession
45. Delays at the airport
46. Automated phone systems
47. Smoking
48. Road rage
49. People that have their mobile turned off when you really need to get in contact with them
50. Running out of toilet roll
51. Coverage of Michael Jackson's death
52. Reality TV
53. Flies
54. Finding a flat tyre
55. Parking costs
56. Bossiness
57. Rubbish opening times to doctors, dentists
58. When your washing machine breaks down
59. Politicians
60. Paper cuts
61. Buses not arriving on time
62. Singers who mime
63. People who can't park properly
64. Over packaged kids toys
65. Diarrhoea
66. Constipation
67. Text message speak
68. Bad hair days
69. Getting something in your eye
70. The hot water running out when you're running a bath
71. People who drive in the middle lane of motorways
72. People who mumble
73. Slow traffic lights
74. Cashiers giving you your change on top of a receipt
75. Cramp
76. Reading about Brad Pitt/Jennifer Aniston saga
77. Unpredictable weather
78. Cars blocking pedestrian crossings
79. Adult acne
80. People who are not polite in emails
81. Yo-yo dieting celebs
82. Trying to find the end of the sticking tape or toilet roll
83. Pimped up cars
84. Traffic wardens
85. Losing your passport
86. Running out of petrol
87. Burning your toast
88. Sunburn
89. iPhone obsessives
90. Celebrity fitness DVDs
91. People addicted to watching soaps
92. Breaking a nail
93. Bankers
94. PDA (public displays of affection)
95. Under performance
96. Someone altering your seat height at work
97. People who don't remove their shoes in the house
98. Children at weddings
99. Hot weather when you're not on holiday
100. Sports commentary
4 Eylül 2009 Cuma
Efrasiyab'ın Hikayeleri
"İhsan Oktay Anar harika bir hikaye anlatıcıdır." Henüz okuyamadığım tek kitabını da bitirdikten sonra onun hakkındaki bu düşüncem iyice perçinlendi. Bir bütünün içine yerleştirilmiş küçük hikayelerden oluşuyor kitap. Her öyküde Anar'ın tarzına ait göndermeler, sentezler mevcut. Superman'i , Kırmızı Başlıklı Kız'ı Anadolu'ya getiriyor Anar. Cezzar Dede ile Ölüm'ün Uzun İhsan'ı bulmak için dolaştıkları mahallenin de Cennet'in katları olması kitabın zirvesidir kanımca.
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